5:32 PM
Thursday, September 19, 2013
formative feedback is such a wake up call
threshold?!? i expected it for cpj, but for studio?!?
clearly hidayah is not helpful cause i consulted her before
executing, dafuq, so affected, like this heavy stone in my heart.
idk how to move on from here.
3:34 PM
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
whatdya know
week 7 is here
where did time went to?
another 7 more weeks and it'll be end of the first semester
:o
i have been immensely blessed
issa would know, i was telling her on our way home.
issa and i would have enjoyable chatty rides back
when i drop her home
everything falls well into place when i least expect it.
friends who willingly help me with my shoot,
super super thankful
especially lexine who brought me to her yacht party
and chris for accompanying me on sunday
and heather for helping in 2 school projects already,
i cant thank you all enough.
And for the picnik that happen to fall this weekend
and strangers who are so gracious to help,
its so heart warming to know.
:`)
suddenly its like i have this surge of strength
to continue with my briefs, maybe cause as time passes,
the clearer the objectives are,
oh yes! booked flight tix to kota kinabalu this dec 3-7 to join
my mum and her family, hope to trek the foot of mount kinabalu at least though,
soak in god's magnificent creation, things like that makes me happy.
my ahma's 80th birthday is approaching and we're starting to do bits of preparation,
first time seeing my dad so enthu about something, always talking about it and all.
at your time and will, i really hope to win that tickets to catch runningman fan meet,
i wont be desperate this time, depending on my 'fate', just this once,
actually i always say the same thing... so it may not be valid anymore.
may this fire continue burning in me to focus in school
despite all the exciting plans coming up.
ciao ~
7:06 PM
Wednesday, September 04, 2013
my week so far has been pleasant,
g.o.d is over and we're happy with our work,
brand for brief 1 has been settled,
my first official karaoke session last night
from 7ish -12 midnight with kelong peeps!
pretty fun stuff, nvr done it before haha
cause im all so self-conscious hehe!
*shy*
no school today and tmr,
give me the strength to do work at home!!!!
lets do this!
ok after i watch my crime & cooking shows
sudden bad flu today my nose is flowing corn syrup
must have been the aircon in the karaoke room last night, ah.
3:58 AM
Sunday, September 01, 2013
I feel better,
isnt it interesting that ppl's lives are
always changing, goals are different,
priorities are different in just a blink of an eye?
talking to you always makes me feel better
somehow. although i cant keep doing this,
I guess its cause i've always been used to this.
I have so much love for you, thank you for
that sacrifice.
kindest human i've ever known,
everyone shd get to know you.
Let me push on!
Come on jos!
Do this for yourself!!!!!!!
i dont know how to describe what im feeling now,
As the days go by, the more unmotivated and lazy i am
Even though i am panicking inside, i am not doing anythig about it.
It scares me, it really does. I fear for the worst,
I fear that i might get second class lower or third class honours,
I fear for so many things, i alr fear being alone.
I miss having that constant support i had for many years
i dont know man, this terrible feeling right now might be the
effect for this huge sense of loss,
I feel so stupid, i have been missing classes,
I have been late all the time, i have been making plans on doing my work
But somehow i try to fit fun plans and then push my homework plans
for i dont know when, this is no more time to waste, but im still wasting time,
Playing soccer, seeing fishes, fuck man, i can cry all i want, but nth will change.
Bottomline,
I dont know what the fuck is wrong with me.
It really is the lowest point of my whole 22 years of living.
no one to turn to, or rather no one i want to turn to,
fucking wreck.